LIFE LATELY

WOW.
I haven't posted in forever and my only excuse is that I've been busy livin' life.
To give the condensed version of this story:
- I graduated and then found out I was missing a class, so even though I walked, I'm going back to school in eight hours to take a psychology class I registered for last fall but was told by my advisor that I didn't need. My life.
 - I have gone out with two guys the past month. One was a total creep that used the phrase "when we get married someday..." at least seventeen times. No thank you. The second one took me out on hands-down the most stimulating and sweetest date in my life that left me swooning... but now we are hitting that rut of "let's just be friends". It's hard because he lives three hours away in Charlotte and I like him a whole heck of a lot, but it's hard when he's been cheated on by his other long distance ex-girlfriend making it hard for him to trust women, and I just need someone that can be there to watch movies with me whenever I want him to. We're still friends, but I'd be lying if I said it was easy because it's actually really really hard... Especially when all you can think about is your desire to make out with him all the time.
- I've been offered the opportunity to move to Charleston this coming August. This is seriously my dream. Ever since I visited that city at the age of 17 I knew that that was the place for me. It's breath-taking and simple and cozy and has the most wonderful atmosphere about it. I can't even act like it's not scaring me shitless to even imagine leaving my life here to move to a whole other state, but I'm heavily leaning towards a big fat "yes". But I know that if I do this, I have to actually finish growing up and being more responsible this summer... which isn't in my interest right now.
- I got drunk for the first time in my life this past Saturday. Yes, I'm twenty-two, but I've lived a very sheltered and at times suffocating life in part by my parents. I didn't even go out for my twenty-first. So I decided the night that I threw caution to the wind and kissed the boy I was talking about up there on my first date with him, which is a big no-no for me, that I'm tired of being safe and cautious about everything in my life and I've vowed to live this summer and get a little rowdy. So lying in Jordan's bed on Saturday watching Summer Catch and White Chicks, I got drunk off wine and it was magical. I had such a great time giggling and being young and free and not caring for once in my life how stupid I was because I'm still at that age where it's okay to screw up or make mistakes - as long as I'm living that's all that really matters.
- I'm actually having a big party for my birthday this year. I haven't had a celebration since I turned twenty, but I'm ready for one this time. My twenty-first was spent at my best friend's watching a movie and eating jiffy pop. My twenty-second was spent crying in Macaroni Grill after a crappy day at school. This year... this year it's going to be different. I've already got my list made out and I'm sending out invites. It's going to be one enchanting night.
- I've finally decided that people that can't return a simple text message aren't worth it. I'm tired of always being that girl that lets people walk all over her and then call me their friend... no it doesn't work like that. Not anymore. So to those people that can't call me back or even text me back - I'm over it and honestly, my life has been better without you these past few weeks. It's sad, but it's time to move on.
- After cleaning my life out of those people that don't care enough, I started to really pay attention to the people that have been there. The ones I have been selfish and just said "well they're there all the time anyway, they're not going anywhere, we can just hang out whenever". For that, I'm terribly sorry that I took them for granted. You never realize how much you've missed something until you revaluate your priorities. So I've been spending a lot of time with Jordan and extra time with Chelsea and also calling and texting Carmen much more than usual because I honestly love them and I'm so blessed to have them in my life for as long as I have. And Aleesha and I have been working together a lot so we've been spending more time together which is a great gem and I've even decided to hang out with Colby more since I've remembered how great of friends we were many years ago, including my oldest friend Alyssa. It's been a serious few weeks of realizations.
- Going back to said boy from above, his name is Spencer. He's seriously changed my life. Is that crazy? Yes. But it's true. He has made me reconsider every decision I have ever made. He makes me want to stop talking about doing things and actually suck it up and do them! He gives me courage for adventure, guts to stand up to the assholes, confidence and security within myself, and he's always there  for those deep down laughs that you can feel ripple through your whole body until your sides feel like they're going to split. I hope that someday we can work it out, but for now, I'm content with being his friend no matter what people may say about me being too nice of a girl and too vulnerable.
- I drove to Atlanta the morning after my graduation and spent the weekend with my family. It was marvelous! And ever since I got back I've been dying to get back out of town. Augusta is closing on me slowly and steadily. I'm ready for a change. Carmen told me today that a month ago she would have told me I was insane for wanting to move to Charleston but she can sense the change in my heart and that I need this and I couldn't agree more.
- I dyed my hair for the first time in years and I'm excited about how great it turned out! I can't wait to ombre it!
- Cheers to the greatest Summer of my life!

Until then
- Tay